True feeling

Is it uneasy for me to say those 3 words even i really want to say it from very long time ago. Maybe because i know that u never have the same feeling like i do.
I don't know what should i do. Should i let u know my feeling or i just keep this feeling only for myself.
This feeling has been bigger time by time because you treat me so well.
If i want this feeling disappear i should stay away from your side.
Or i just try to find someone else to replace u from my heart.

Another weird dream

It happened again, last night i got that weird dream.
I dreamed about someone that i ever loved before, althougt it wasn't clear about his face but i remember n felt so sad in my heart.
In my dream he will get married with another woman n he gave me the wedding invitation, at that time i choose to confess to him about my feeling.
I really want to tell him that i love him before he get married.
I went to his house to confess but suddenly i woke up from my dream.
I felt hurt in my heart n wanna cry whole day. I feel he is the one that i really love.
I miss him so much.

My weird dream

It's so weird, i really want to forget him, he ever been someone special in my heart. But suddenly he came to my dream a few days ago. I feel The dream like a reality, i came to him in his working place, in that dream i work in the same place with him, i knew he loves someone else n he promised to marry her sometimes, when we work together i'll be close to him n we married, someday i got pregnant n suddenly he remember his promise to the girl n he asked me to go to his residence, i feel shock n so sad because he still remember about the girl. I feel so dissapointed too, and regret of what i did to the girl.
When i wake up from my dream, i have complicated feeling in my heart n make me feeling blue for almost 2 days.
My bestfriend ever told me that he is not a good guy for me, but love can't be blame right? It just go by itself without we can control it.
Maybe i can really forget him if i meet my mr. Right. 😊

my opinion

i don't know what's in their mind, why they like to waste everything such as time and food.
i sometimes look some people in  wedding parties, many kinds of food is served and people who come there eat it, but many of them not finish their food, they just throw the rest of their food and come again to try another food and of course they do the same thing to the food that they eat with the last one. it's so pitiful to see it, meanwhile many people out there who so hard to get a little food. 
maybe you ever heard "jam karet", yes it's a perm in Indonesia in meaning "tardy or overdue" if you make an appointment with someone else for example at 7.00 o'clock so don't be shocked if the one whom you waiting for will come at 7.30 or maybe at 8.00, i have a lot of experiences about that, i so often wait my friends when we want to go vacation or just hanging out somewhere. even it's so bored but i prefer waiting than being waited by my friends.     

my first post

we never know what will happen to us in the future, what we can do is to do our best things in present.